Saturday, December 31, 2005

Good Tidings and a Happy New Year

As I write this, I'm recalling the special coincidence on Christmas and now on the eve of the New Year: as I pray the 4 sets of mysteries of the Rosary, meditating on the Joyful mysteries on Christmas Eve and on the Glorious mysteries on Christmas Day was particularly fitting. The expectation of the coming of the Lord, the miracle of His conception, His birth among us and then His growing in wisdom (Lk 2:52); then, the reason why He took flesh, human flesh, to lead the way to true life for all of us (Jn 14:6), for no one has loved more (Jn 15:13).

I can't help seeing the coming year through the same eyes: on its eve, with joyful expectation about the many graces that Our Lord blesses us with every day and, once 2006 has started, with jubilant confidence on the Master's love for His children.

I hope that y'all had a blessed Christmas and have a New Year filled with the peace that only Jesus can offer.


Sunday, December 25, 2005

God with Us

The greatest Christmas gift is Jesus Himself, "for God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son." (Jn 3:16) And Jesus gave us life through His Spirit. God fulfilled in Him all His promises through the centuries and made with us a new covenant, always out of His mercy for His beloved creatures.

I can't express in words my awe at God's plan as it unfolds before the eyes of my soul. I look at His mother, my mother, to find the way to thank Jesus for so many blessings. Yet, it's not words that I find, but a tender and deep joy towards God.

Let me borrow the words of the Psalmist:
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Bead #10

After about nine months praying the Rosary daily, today I found out that my memory rosary has only nine Ave Maria beads!

I'm puzzled how this could be... Perhaps a bead broke off, I suspect when I stepped on the rosary once.

I'm now considering the choices of just adding an Ave Maria or buying a new memory rosary (they work pretty well for me). Adding an imaginary bead is no big deal, but I'll have to try to see how it goes.

Getting a new memory rosary is cheap, but letting go of the current one poses some pondering. First, I've never disposed of a sacramental before and I can't decide between burying it or burning it. Secondly, I really like my rosary, worn by my fingers going over the beads...


Saturday, December 10, 2005

In Focus, Blurred

As I said before, in order to keep my attention focused, even if only for a few moments, I repeat an ejaculation based on the Mystery being meditated on as I say the Ave Maria. It indeed helps when I pray the Rosary while driving, but praying also helps my driving.

It's not only the way of driving that's helped, becoming a more fluid conduct on the road, but also where and when driving takes place. I trace my route and shift my schedule to avoid heavier traffic, so that more of my attention is available to meditation.

It's easy to tell when not much attention is left when I say the Gloria after the Pater or when I can't remember that I said the Fatima Prayer. That's when I consider my options between changing my route or even finding the slowest moving lane, so that I can drive more relaxed and autonomously.

On the other hand, I've found that the ejaculations may be a bit counter-effective when I pray the Rosary in a stationary place. Then, I'm able to meditate more deeply if I picture the events surrounding the Mystery in question. Among the telling signs, saying the ejaculations tends to be a bit mechanical and time drags.

Of course, this is what happens to me. And I suspect that this is what happens to me now. But the Lord is merciful and I shall not want.


Where Was I?

I've been posting new entries less often than I'd like.

I prefer to post not long after a Confession and always after some time of prayer, but my busy days eat up all time.

I could probably post from work, but I'd rather not. I try to give my employer a full day's worth of work.

I could probably post from home, but I'd rather not. After a whole day spent in front of a computer, I refrain from having one in front of me in the evening.

Only weekends are left then.

Then again, it's not like I realize something new everyday. Actually, I can't say that I realize about something every week either. As time goes by, I've actually notices that some past realizations get deeper and others are, regretfully, forgotten. I'd like to think that such forgotten insights would be absorbed in the soul as food is in the body, but I can't really say. Yet, I pray that the Good Shepherd will provide my soul with all the sustenance it needs to grow towards Him.